I am sixteen going on seventeen,
Baby I am naive
- Sixteen Going on Seventeen, Sound of Music OST -

The song I can no longer sing
(u)

:P Nonetheless, I am officially SEVENTEEN!

Thank you to everyone who wished me Happy Birthday in so many possible ways whether it be through text, Facebook, MSN or face to face :) The overwhelming number of them really made my day (as generic as messages can be xD)

I tried to compile a list of everyone who wished me and the list goes :D
1. Daniel Lim
2. Jason Huang
3. Yu He
4. Noon Bid Lee
5. Luke Tsui
6. Ashlee Ung
7. Louis Lau
8. Adam Ch'ng
9. Kim Nguyen
10. Victor Loh
11. Jade Moloney
12. Tal Cohen
13. Zoltan Baranyai
14. Rachel Fong
15. Jade Moloney
16. Eddy Kusdiana
17. Avis Quach
18. Matt Yong
19. Kelvin Yang
20. Edric Chia
21. Brendan Doidge
22. Harold Nguyen
23. Li Ann Goh
24. Nadali Dayananda
25. Michelle Loke
26. Domenic Chung
27. Tyson Tan
28. Victor Tran
29. Andy Liu
30. Vincent Lin
31. Jennifer Quan
32. Allen Zhang
33. Krystal Fung
34. Cellini Cheung
35. Vignesh Shanmugapalan
36. Ian Ngo
37. Sarah Boden
38. Justin Sim
39. Samantha Ter
40. Meg Scully
41. Gloria Wong
42. Serena Lam
43. Jian Wen
44. Weng Yan San
45. Siew Kei Ong
46. Alicia Choong
47. Celine Choong
48. Ng Jun Kang
49. Danial Rizzal
50. Chloe Phang
51. Han Wei Cha
52. Jessica La
53. Eilidh Nicoll
54. Jason Vujicic
55. Jin Ng
56. Yi Yang Lu
57. Kim Falconer
58. Jonathan Tse
59. Christopher Hong Tat Khoo
60. Chanelle Perera
61. Jessica Aguda
62. Sachin Perera
63. Lisa Clark
64. Gig Mogiannis
65. Stephen Pellis
66. Arthur Lam
67. Hanh-Nhi Huynh
68. Mei Gwen Tee
69. Stephen Chan
70. Chermaine Ch'ng
71. Eleanor Francis
72. Brendan Law
73. Yusuke Nakajima
74. Brenda Lau
75. Ki Tat
76. Evania Lok
77. Kathleen To
78. Nathan Ting
79. Luke Yong
80. Mei Ling Wong
81. Karl Chai
82. Rudy Sumarno
83. Adam Ch’ng
84. Mark Wan
85. Karlie Kan
86. Terri Salwin
87. Tina Afshar
88. Mae Gene Yew
89. Rosie Bisas
90. Tony Dinh
91. Gianni Castellani
92. Tenzing Lama
93. James McKenzie
94. Irfan Amin
95. Kerrin Naidoo
96. Wei-Ning Yong
97. Tiong Ren Saw
98. Michelle Chen
99. Henry Rhim
100. Jeffrey Kung
101. Aaron Leong
102. Jacinta Rosewarne
103. Alicia Lau
104. Mihir Popat
105. Loreen Lai
106. Steven Zhang
107. Yu Wei Lam
108. Yoke Yee Woon
109. Peter Rosewarne
110. Hannah Pho
111. Daniel Attia
112. Jia Ling Chong
113. Anton Wu
114. Alex Ho
115. Daniel Ma
116. Natalie Ling
117. Eugene Lim
118. Emerald Law
119. Benson Chan
120. Jason Hawking
121. Jennifer Liu
122. Vivienne La
123. Adrian Goh
124. Steph Lum
125. Steph Loke
126. Andrew Liu
127. Millie Ong
128. Julian Tan
129. Teoh Xiu Jong
130. Fiona Szutu
131. Hao Soon
132. Joel Alati
133. Cindy Li
134. Edward Goh
135. Vanessa Lee
136. Esther Cheah
137. Leonie Lim
138. Greg Dimopoulos
139. Emelia Suraya
140. Ee Ping Yeoh
141. Geraldine Lee
142. Devin Toh
143. Sheranne Liew
144. Shahzad Badvi
145. Chloe Lokan
146. Katerina Kiburg
147. Calise Hu
148. Nick Lui
149. Kasun Kanangama
150. SynNa Ong
151. Wen Zhi Chee
152. Shin Yeen
153. Sarah Liau
154. Evon Chin
155. Sheryl Hoe
156. Noreen oi
157. Luke Wang
158. Jamie Ling
159. Samantha Lee
160. James Le
161. Nicholas Eng
162. Sammy Yim
163. Tim Fong
164. Rachael Hua
165. Daniel Ong
166. Josh Centeno
167. Bond Szeto
168. Katrina Chooi
169. Sue Ann Leong
170. Kah-Lipp Liew
171. Alyssa Loke
172. Josie Liu
173. Darren Mok
174. Lavnish Prashar
175. Aashima Singh
176. Chloe Lin
177. Nur Atli
178. Iman Abdulhai
179. Li Jane Lim
180. Soo Xing San
181. Sam Chin
182. Vidur Valera
183. Azlan Abidin
184. William Yu
185. Amy Sia
186. Shana Shafiza
187. Carol Wu
188. Jimmy Xu
189. Dominic Jones
190. Alice Wei
191. Jenny Goh
192. Izzatie Ali Sabri
193. Julian Kim Pereira
194. New Su Shern
195. Azhar Ashraf Jamel
196. Selene Tam
197. Arvind Qumar
198. James Lim
199. Hsu-Ann Lee
200. Mina Ivanov
201. Steven Goh
202. Tiffeny Chan
203. Sasha Locke
204. Alex Lio

Thank you everyone :) It's most definitely made my day :D

Well, if anyone's interested in what I ended up doing for my 17th Birthday... As follows:

Day started off simple; had church :D I didn't really know what to wear and especially cos it was a 32degrees day... I was really limited to what I could wear but ANYWAYS- I just wore this.[photo will be uploaded soon]
Inside singlet-JayJays
Outside top-Cotton On
Shorts-Cotton On

No I'm not trying to promote Cotton On just because I work there. Truth be told, I actually DO have a lot of Cotton On clothes... Can't help it. They're cheap and comfortable to wear :P

Newhoos, after church, I went to a friend's house for what was supposed to be a simple get-together with some parents and teachers for Sunday School. However, the party just sorta got abit bigger than expected :P Lotsa Aunties and Uncles :P And they did the sweetest thing! They sang me Happy Birthday! Very touched honestly :)

Well then after, I had choir and all that jazz per usual :) To celebrate, I had dinner at a place called Melissa's in Templestowe with my family and the food was alright :) I had a Chicken Risotto and honestly, it's more Chicken than risotto which depends if it's a good or bad thing :P

I was thinking about the PRIVILEGES of being 17 and honestly, I have to say 17 could well be the dullest year of my life. Sucks to say because I'm 17 now, I need to apply for a Concession Card now -.-" But on the more exciting side, I get to enroll for the electoral role :D

I think about it and I realize, 17 is neither sweet or legal. It's just in-between. How utterly Lame. But on the uber bright side, now that I'm 17, I get a higher pay when I work :D *two thumbs up*

I really want exams to be over so that I can start singing and everything :(

Some presents I got these few days were from my parents, Aunty Kim, Luke and Victor :D My dad already gave me a necklace from awhile back so that's alright :P I wore it to the formal :) So it has some sentimental value to it :D My mum gave me money to buy Havaianas and knowing how much my parents think they are overrated, I'm very thankful for them understanding how desperate I am for a pair of thongs. Aunty Kim gave me two beach bags which have embroideries on it of a pair of bikini and sandals on the other. Very Cute and like I said before, photos will be up soon. Internet's being a cranky poopface atm. Victor got me a little piggy soft toy which sticks to the car windows and I've decided to use that on my first car. Hopefully I'll find it when the time comes... Now, a photo would've been the best way to show what Luke got me but anyways.... He got me...ROB THOMAS'S CRADLESONG ALBUM!!
*crosses off the To-Buy List on the Left Hand Side of the blog*
:) THANK YOUUUU :D
I'm listening to him now and bygollygeewhiz.
I love it!! :D

When one is approached with confronting news; news that one does not expect to be real- what is there for one to do? One seeks advice from others but only to be received in humour and mockery. One would assume the respect from one to another is mutual and that the seriousness of the actual issue would be retained but regardless of friendship and care, laughter fills the air; even when it ought to be tears.

Tears of pain for a fellow friend is hurt.
Tears of frustration that one does not know what to do.
Tears of worry for a fellow friend who is lost and confused.
Tears of anger that one can only do so much.

Where can one find a being who shares the same fear and worry for this issue? Can two people ever feel equally dedicated and devoted to an issue? I think so. But where is that other person?

Why does one bother?
Why does one care?
What is there to bother and care when everyone treats it with little importance?
There is no one to share this with and no one to worry with.

So lonely one feels. Continuously feeling alone by oneself. No one to be with them and no one to be around them. Just them alone, by themselves. However, when one realizes there is no one on Earth who would listen to their cries, the One in heaven will. Without doubt, it is known that God will listen and God will act.

No one knows where, no one knows when. But whenever and wherever it maybe, one can trust that God will guide them in the right direction to avoid further complications and by speaking to Him, the burden of the issue is lifted up to him and the heart feels its correct mass again.

The seaweed is always greener is somebody else's lake,
You dream about going out there but that is a big mistake
- Under The Sea, Alan Menken -

Thoroughly amused.
I was in the shower when I heard a dog bark. Well, shocked I listened again waiting for the bark. Turns out, it wasn't a dog. It was my dad.

Today's the last Friday of school I have before exams. I can't believe school is finally coming to an end.

THANK GOD!

On a more serious note, I really would like to dedicate this post to the big man up in heaven, God for everything he's given me. In a way, everything he's set out for me in the next few weeks have really showed me how real God is and more importantly, how real he is in my life.

I was juggling up between going back to Malaysia to staying here. The decision was very hard to make because honestly, my family isn't the best at staying apart. It just doesn't feel right. But God drew the lines and showed me where I was to go. He gave me not only two jobs, but two jobs I know I'll have fun doing.

I was on Vogue.com.au's forum a few days ago and comments people made about Cotton On was repulsive and I began to worry what is to come with me working there. It built up and I began to doubt what things are meant to be. I wonder if I should look for another job to ensure a consistent income and all the unnecessary worries began flooding in. But nonetheless, I realized. If I had trusted God to give me this job, I should trust that he has a plan for me this summer :) Whatever it is, I'm ready for it.

I'm constantly worried about my application for School Captain next year and obviously, Presentation Night can either be an absolute blast for me or a dead dread. It's just inevitable to feel this way. What if I don't get it? I still have to go and suffer the embarrassment. It's not that I don't accept the fact that I didn't get it. If I'm not elected, then I accept defeat respectfully and will obviously be happy for the one selected. But I can't help feeling slightly emptier with my failure. Thank God, he provided me with not one, but two awards. I suppose in a way, as materialistic as it sounds, it's just God's way of assuring me things will be alright :) Whatever the problem may be, He's right next to me as I take that step of faith.

I thank God for a great family and great friends and great teachers. I thank God for people around me and also things He has blessed me with. I thank God for the opportunity to study and guide others too. I thank God for who I am and how I am perceived to be no matter how one may judge me or think me to be another. I thank God for how He has made me whether fat or skinny, tall or short, zit or not, I thank God for everything. How he made me is how He wants me to represent Him and I know my mind cannot comprehend God's reason behind things.

My coming weeks are pretty jam-packed and I think I owe all readers a duty of care to explain :P In order:::
1. ESL Exam
2. Legal Exam
3. Accounting Exam
4. Methods Exam
5. Literature Exam
6. General Methods Exam
7. Piano Class
8. Birthday Dinner with Churchies
9. Birthday Lunch with Schoolies
10. Crown Launch with CHIME
11. Course Confirmation
12. Transition
13. Presentation Night
14. Cotton On Induction
15. SUMMER BREAK!

I can't believe Year 12 is actually coming. MMMm.



Put The Big Red Button on your site

I need to be bold,
Need to jump in the cold water
- I'd Rather Be With You, Joshua Radin -

I have a confession to make.
I miss my friends Luke and Victor alot :(

Why?

Cos before today, I haven't seen them in 2 weeks. I miss having someone to hurry up when I'm at my locker and a friend to walk back home with :( You guys suck.

Nonetheless, it was great seeing them today :) Thus, realizing how much I missed them :(

Well it's been quite a bipolar day but thankfully, the great stuff overthrow the stupid things :D Award winners were informed today and praise God, I'm one of them :) More info on that will be revealed later this month :D At least this gives me something to look forward to Presentation Night :P Another thing is I got my ESL Outcome back and score was fairly well-played :D 28.5/29 :D:D All I can say is racism goes a long way =/

On the contrary, evil spies have attacked my brain during classes with annoying pitched voices gossiping.
"Did you know ___ is dating ___?"
REALLY!
Yeah!
And it went on and on and on...

Later in the day, I was so unfortunate fortunate to listen in on two girls talking about losing weight.
I'm gonna lose weight now, not eating chips anymore!
But you look great!
I can't- going out on ...
Seriously... I understand how some conversations can be brainless and pointless, but false modesty is pathetic and overrated. We're all great the way we are and end of story. Case closed.

Guess what :D It's cookie monster's birthday :D Go on http://www.google.com and have a look :D

Barely even friends,
Then somebody bends unexpectedly
- Beauty and The Beast, Celine Dion & Peabo Bryson -

Guess what.
What?

I'M AUSTRALIAN

I had my Citizenship ceremony just before at Hawthorn Town Hall and if you're wondering if I feel any different to being Malaysian... No, not really. But, the awesomeness will flow in when I turn 18 :)

When I turn 18; I'll get to vote therefore meaning I'll be on the electoral role, which means I'll have a chance to be a JUROR. Oh my gosh, I'm so excited just thinking about it :D Honestly, I don't understand why people don't want to vote. It's such a privilege to have the government actually want to know your opinion on who should be government. Especially when they fine you for not voting- what's the harm?

Anywhoos, attire for important day. I wore my Cooper St dress from Myer, Cardigan from Cotton On and shoes from Singapore.
The town hall had a chandelier-thing-which-really-isn't-one-but-a-wannabe-one which sorta lit up the hall in a warm feeling.It was my second time going there anyways. First time I was there was last year during a choir performance. The Chandelier Room on the other hand had ACTUAL chandeliers and a very grand feel to it :)

We had some special people coming in to witness the ceremonies and one of them was MP Petro Giorgiou :)Honestly, I don't know that much about him but I felt sad when he mentioned this would be one of his last ceremonies attending as a Member of Parliament. Unsure what he meant, maybe an election's coming up or something, I ono but poor old man :(

After the ceremony, there were some refreshments in the other rooms. I smoothly picked up a glass of white wine and obviously, no fuss :)Guilt overthrows me though. Usually I'm sufficiently okay with alcohol tolerance but I'm not sure why, I have the worst headache atm. It wasn't even like heavy alcohol. -.-" Who knows what's wrong with me?Family Photo :)

Anyways, been doing more study for Legal *sigh* More questions, more pain, more frustration, more stress :(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO Victor, V-tar, Vtac, V-train, Victard, *makes up more nicknames on the spot* Vista, Vidiot, stupid, idiot, etc.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUU!

Have a good birthday and a safe year :P